Oh wells.

4 more months left. The girl I like so much might like my friend. I have this gut feeling. My gut is always right. I'm feeling down. I feel like I wanna give up life... but I can't do that. I will never do that.  "I will never quit." is always on my mind.  but I don't wanna fall in love again.  It hurts. BAD. I'm scared but I'm not showing it. Is she worth it? Is she worth waiting for? I don't know. I might never know. But I want to. I just can't do it without thinking ahead about the consequences. I don't know anymore. Everytime I see her with my friend, I always feel jealous but I can't do anything about it. Damn it, why is it so hard?